Sunny days, keeping the clouds away,
I think we're coming to a clearing and a brighter day.
So far away, still I think they say,
the wait will make the heart grow stronger
or fonder, I can't quite remember anyway.

So if you're waiting for love
Well it's a promise I'll keep
If you don't mind believing that it changes everything
Then time will never matter

Winter spring, it's what love can truly bring
Ice turns to water, water flows to everything
You can lose your mind, maybe then your heart will find
I hope you won't give up what's moving you inside

So if you're waiting for love
Well it's a promise I'll keep
If you don't mind believing that it changes everything
then time will never matter

If the car won't start
When you turn the key
When the music comes on
All your cold cold heart can do is skip a beat.

I am still sickkkk!!! Argh I hate being sick. My head feels like its full of fluids, and my brain is swimming in it. To make things worse I was in school at 10am, and came home at 10pm because I had BS at night. Hahahha. Sniffling + sneezing + coughing + itchy throat + drowsiness = very very grumpy Julie.

Anyway, this song by Jars of Clay was one I listened to a lot 4 years ago, when I faced a similar scenario as now. That was when I was also going through a period of seperation from N. It's kind of funny, how I ran away from making this decision 4.5 years ago, but it still came back full circle. God loves you too much to leave you the same.

I like this line: "the wait will make your heart grow stronger." Recently, I was reading The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. Day 6: "To make the best use of your life, you must never forget two truths: First, compared with eternity, life is extremely brief. Second, earth is only a temporary residence. You won't be here long, so don't get too attached. Ask God to help you see life on earth as he sees it." Perhaps a few months, years down the road, you might look back on a particular instance in your life and think of how trivial it was, how much time you wasted on a particular issue, when the answer was just coming down the road..

I am waiting for something, and I suppose many of us are. What are you waiting for? "If you don't mind believing that it changes everything, then time will never matter."

"Here's the thing about mistakes. Sometimes, even when you know something's a mistake, you gotta make it anyway." - Ted Mosby, HIMYM Season 1

I think one allure of HIMYM is because it was recounted from a 'future' point of view. We all want to know what happens in our future, where we are, what we are doing, who we end up with. Sometimes we feel lost trying to figure all this out, but the magic of HIMYM lies in the fact that, at some point in your life you might feel lost wondering where your life is headed, but ultimately, life happens anyway. The answer is just up ahead and the beauty was really making the journey, all the mistakes and mishaps along the way.

I spent 2 hours on the phone with Clayder. We were unraveling a bunch of threads. I can't predict where I'll be in 2030, But while life happens, I want to be able to live by the following:

"Love greater,
live louder,
celebrate harder,
laugh until your sides ache,
smile from ear-to-ear,
think positively in every situation,
and above all, BELIEVE. "